I’ve been in a relationship for ten months. Only maybe 30 people in my town know about it. It’s been with a girl and I’m sill closeted so naturally it’s going to be very hard to keep the relationship going. We’ve been through almost everything together. We’ve saved each others lives dozens of times. Our relationship is long distance, but we’re still thriving and our feelings are constantly growing stronger for each other. She moved away in September, but the distance is barely a problem for me. My love for her is about what’s on the inside, not outside. Even though she lives in long island and I live in Washington dc, it’s as if she’s right here, resting her head on my chest. Of course I miss her, but I only miss holding her, her hands, or doing physical rings with her. She helped my figure out my sexuality. She’s helped me figure out what I want to be when I grow up. She’s done the most to help me get over my worst fear-the dark. She does so much for me and always thinks that she does nothing. I usually sleep wit at least three lights on per night. This fear has been with me all my life. Even in the sun, I’m scared everything will go dark. I slept with all my lights off last Sunday when she slept over. I wasn’t scared for a moment because I knew that she would keep away my monsters like she always does. We Skype every night and if I’m too scared to sleep, she offers to stay up with me. This beautiful soul does more for me than I do for myself. I think I’m finally getting over my fear. It wouldn’t have been this way if I didn’t have her. She’s the strongest, smartest, most beautiful person I’ve had the pleasure of meeting. She’s my best friend. These past ten months, I’ve had like two anxiety seizures. She keeps those away too. Everything bad goes to hide when she comes around. She makes 10 months seem like 10 minutes because this time has flown by. I am the luckiest person in the world for being with her.

Camille called me the queen of puns.

I leave for Italy tomorrow.

I’ll accept my award now.

I got you a baby seal.
It made you happy when you were sad.
You know what else will make you happy?
Having two baby seals :)
Just wait until I get paid :3
Feel better, beautiful, you deserve too. :)

Marilyn Monroe’s diet;

Breakfast
Orange juice or stewed prunes.
Cereal.
2 slices of crisp toast with butter.
1 cup of milk or cocoa.

Snack
1 cup of milk, 1 cracker.

Lunch
1 egg any style or 2 tablespoons of cottage cheese
1 potato (baked or mashed) or spaghetti, or 1/2 a cup of noodles.
1 slice of stale toast or bread with butter.
Jello or cooked fruit.

Snack
1 cup of milk and cracker.

Dinner
Lean beef, or chicken, or lamb chop, or sweetbreads, or fish, or chicken liver.
1 potato (any way but fried)
1/2 cup of tomatoes or beets, or carrots, or spinach, or string beans, or peas (pureed or strained).
1 slice of bread with butter
Dessert Junket or custard or tapioca or rice pudding or baked apple pie.

Late night snack
Eggnog.